Blogger Widgets Struggling Parents: October 2007

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

The deepest of thoughts
gazing into the moonlight
amazed at the darkness with twinkling stars
with clouds brushing across the Northern sky
a stormy day approaching
wicked naked trees blowing
the night started just right
just as my life
then a thunderstorms
darkness, frightfulness, loneliness
wishing for a rainbow to bring me happiness
its lost as I am
bottomless pit
pain, cut, starve
anything but light to bring brightness
cry, scream, and yell
“what the Hell”

Tuesday, October 30, 2007


Every year that goes by, the numbers of spending money on your own pets increases. To a lot of people their pets are just as important to them as the rest of their family members. And its easier to buy for your pets then your own children because they aren't picky. You can buy anything for them and they show only unconditional love which is the best love of all, they don't show jealousy, resentment or imprecation. They love you no matter what, they are extremely happy to see you and they wait up for you when you come in late with no arguments, they are just happy to see you, even if you don't show a lot of affection towards them they still love you without any questions.

I had a Chinese Pug I got for Christmas one year from when I was married, way back in 1993, I named her Buffy and I got her when she was 5 weeks old, the best dog I ever had and she past away in the summer of 2005. When she pasted away I felt I had died inside, I cried for days because she wasn't there for me when I got off work or came home from being somewhere. I still think of her everyday and wish I could have her back. I bred her and she had 8 puppy pugs, one for each titty, but she didn't have enough milk to nurse all of them so me and my kids bottle fed most of them. Birthing them was dramatic, she had to have a C-section and the vets office was a motor home. All of the Pugs were born dead, we had to revive them by giving them CPR, and we revived all of them. We ended up keeping one because he had a white paw and one white toe nail, so everyone was saying he wasn't purebred, even know he was. We named him Benson and he lives with my X-husband in Reno Nevada where its cooler. He is getting up there in age, he is almost 11 yrs old, I see him from time to time when my kids visit their Dad, he belongs to my youngest daughter but she lives with me in California. I still love pugs, and I'm thinking about getting another pug and breeding them again. Check out the pet costumes I found on Google search images...Have a great week !!!

Monday, October 29, 2007

My Daily Journal;

Last night was an incredible night that I spent with my Boyfriend, I would say that it was the best Love making moment of my life, but it keeps getting better and better. I slept like a baby but I noticed that he slept restless most of the night, moving around in the bed a lot.

Yesterday morning I had breakfast with my Mom, Dad, and my twin sister which she was the one who drove me to the restaurant. Me and my sis were dressed in Halloween costumes from the night before party we went to. But the morning was a mess, I had taken too many pills and all most overdosed (well I actually did, not intentionally, but maybe subconsciously). I started getting blurred vision and I started shaking to the point that everyone else noticed. I don't remember to much except that my Dad guided me out to the car to go to my daughters Apt. I didn't mean to scare anyone one and everyone made a big deal out of it, it wasn't the first time and now everyone wants to control my pill intake.

They say they'd miss me if I had died, but how would they really know if I didn't even die. I know my kids would all blame everything on themselves but why? when I am the addict with the problem and the problem occurred/ started even before they were even born. Is that crazy? I'm talking as if I had already died or going to. But believe it or not the moment scared the hell out of me, so that makes me more cautions...and life goes on to the next day which is today...

Sunday, October 28, 2007

What gets your attention
Where is everybody? why havent you been viewing my blog? do I have to be rude? enough questions, I've been struggling with trying to get traffic flow and visitors to my sites, I have many sites, if you type in google search bar "mee moe" many topics I have posted come up. I am thinking mybe changing my search name, or topics, maybe just posting my lifestyle, my feelings, and my actions. Everyone posts everything about money making ideas and do any of them really work? oH another question, spare me please, because I am just plain frustrated !!! but not giving up, because to me its me make more money, tell me what you think of my blogs, anything to make progress !!!

Saturday, October 27, 2007

What gives a human soul the thought to self destruct? the desire to feel pain inflicted onto them. Most of time I feel numb, I just want to feel something, whether it be love, anger, destruction or pain. And then I choose to stay numb, by using anything to not feel anything. I wonder how about I began to become the way that I am. Was it my childhood lifestyle, my past relationships? maybe Karma if anyone believes in that.
I've become my own worse emeney, cutting, straving, and self pity, I grovel, and scream and cry. No I don't think the world owes me anything, I just feel the way I do because my emotions take over. It isn't me, its someone else, its a "I dont feel, or want to feel anything, so just leave me be". I want to leave this life of mine, but I wouldn't do it by drowning, I have a fear of drowning, or maybe I should and face my fear. I want to sleep and never wake up, cut myself and watch me bleed. I am not one to faint of the site of blood, I am a retired Nurse. I ask myself what there is left in this life of mine, and I have not come up with any answers, so I just cut, take pills, and cry...

Friday, October 26, 2007

Predictions have been made of several events that some Christians believe are related: the second coming of Jesus, the war of Armageddon, the arrival on earth of the Antichrist, the Tribulation, the Rapture, some horrendous natural disaster, etc. Jewish, Islamic, psychic and occult predictions have also been offered as well. 1

In this section of our web site, we have listed over 7 dozen past predictions of the end of the world which have one factor in common: none ever came true. There is every likelihood that most (perhaps all) of the future predictions will not materialize either.

We have been criticized by some of our readers for whipping up hysteria about the end of the world. Our intent is the exact opposite: we want to dampen the level of panic. We hope that by listing many dozens of past predictions all of which have failed, people will realize that some very prominent individuals have been consistently wrong when they predicted the end of the world. End of the world predictions have been common throughout Christianity and other religions for almost 2000 years. Thus, the public has little to fear from prophets who predict a particular date for the world's end.

With the escalation of tensions in Lebanon in 2006-JUL, many Christian leaders predicted that the end had already begun. This created an intense interest among many conservative Christians about TEOTWAWKI (The End Of The World As We Know It) prophecies. Some indications of increasing concern were:

During the first half of 2006, this essay had been approximately the tenth most popular essay on our web site of 3,540 essays However, during 2006-JUL it rose quickly to the most popular essay.
WorldNetDaily, a conservative Protestant news organization noted:

"Prophecy-related products continue to be popular among WorldNetDaily readers, with two books on Israel’s involvement in end-times predictions coming in at No. 2 and 3 on ShopNetDaily’s weekly best-seller list—Dave Hunt’s 'Judgement Day! Islam, Israel and the Nations' and Greg Laurie's 'Are We Living in the Last Days?' " 2

Gary DeMar, writing for American Vision, a "biblical wordview ministry" commented:

"Why shouldn’t Christians snatch up these end-time books? They’re being told by prophetic writers that this is the generation that will see the rapture. Of course, previous generations of Christians were told the same thing. I predict that the prophetic scenario outlined by the authors of the books that appear on WorldNetDaily’s list will not take place as predicted. And when they don’t, memories will fade, and a new group of authors will join well-established prophecy writers and publish books that will start the cycle all over again that a Middle East Armageddon is inevitable and on the horizon." 3

We offer no guarantees that the prophets listed below actually made these predictions. We have described their alleged predictions as they were reported on the Web, in newspapers, books, etc. We do not have the resources to track down orginal source material.

These TEOTWAWKI (The End Of The World As We Know It) prophecies for 2006 have all failed:
2006-JAN-25: James Kingsley predicted a major "earthquake Storm" near Los Angeles, CA. It was to start shortly after midnight of 2006-JAN-25, last for 2 hours, and be centered in Redondo Beach. The individual quakes range in magnitude from 7.1 to 7.9, and will be called "The Big One". 4
2006-MAY-25: Eric Julien of the Exopolitics Institute predicted that a remnant from a comet would hit the Atlantic ocean and generate massive tsunami almost 200 meters (650 feet) in height. Most heavily affected will be the Atlantic coasts between the equator and the Tropic of Cancer. He predicted that there will be tens of millions of deaths. North America and Europe was to be hit with less devastating tsunamis. Dozens of underwater volcanoes were to erupt, raising the temperature of the ocean to the boiling point. He based these predictions on a series of visions that he has had. 5
2006-JUN-06: According to an E-mail that we received, the writer believes that "666," the number of the beast mentioned in the biblical book of Revelation, is really a date: 06/06/06 or 2006-JUN-6. He expected the rapture and start of the tribulation on that date.
A movie "The Beast" was released on this day. The story involves the discovery that Jesus Christ never existed. "The authors of the Gospels, writing 40 to 90 years after the supposed life of Christ, never intended for their works to be read as biographies." 6 The screen play involves apparently involves a momentous event in 2006-JUN-06 (6-6-06). What the event is is unclear. The staff have been sworn to secrecy. Nothing notable happened.

2006-AUG-22: Glenn Beck, anchor for CNN Headline News, predicted on 2006-AUG-09 that AUG-22:

"... is the day that Israel might be wiped off the map, leading to all-out Armageddon. ... [It] could be the day that Agnostics get down on one knee and start to pray, 'Sweet Jesus, are you coming today'? "

When AUG-22 arrived without any sign of Armageddon, Beck responded to a critical E-mail from a viewer by saying:

"I wasn't predicting Armageddon today. ... We talked about the predictions of renowned Middle East scholar Bernard Lewis. It is amazing to me to be called a nut job for quoting a scholar who thinks we might expect aggressive behavior from a man who wants to wipe Israel off the map. I know. Sounds crazy! But, hey, who has time to actually listen?" 7

Bernard Lewis wrote in the Wall Street Journal on 2006-AUG-08:

"In Islam, as in Judaism and Christianity, there are certain beliefs concerning the cosmic struggle at the endof time--Gog and Magog, anti-Christ, Armageddon, and for Shiite Muslims, the long awaited return of the Hidden Imam, ending in the final victory of the forces of good over evil, however these may be defined. Mr. Ahmadinejad and his followers clearly believe that this time is now, and that the terminal struggle has already begun and is indeed well advanced. It may even have a date, indicated by several references by the Iranian president to giving his final answer to the U.S. about nuclear development by Aug. 22. This was at first reported as 'by the end of August,' but Mr. Ahmadinejad's statement was more precise."

"What is the significance of Aug. 22? This year, Aug. 22 corresponds, in the Islamic calendar, to the 27th day of the month of Rajab of the year 1427. This, by tradition, is the night when many Muslims commemorate the night flight of the prophet Muhammad on the winged horse Buraq, first to 'the farthest mosque,' usually identified with Jerusalem, and then to heaven and back (cf Koran XVII.1). This might well be deemed an appropriate date for the apocalyptic ending of Israel and if necessary of the world. It is far from certain that Mr. Ahmadinejad plans any such cataclysmic events precisely for [2006-]AUG-22. But it would be wise to bear the possibility in mind. 8
SEP-08/09: The Lord's Witness and the True Bible Code predicted that a nuclear bomb will hit the UN plaza in Manhattan on the Sabbath, sometime between sundown on SEP-08 and sundown on SEP-09. This is the same group who predicted that the UN would take over the world sometime between 2001-MAR-26 and APR-24 and that a word-wide famine would being during 2001-SEP.
SEP-12: The House of Yahweh issued a news release stating that nuclear war was to begin on SEP-12. The war would start around the Euphrates River. Their leader, Yisrayl Hawkins, says that the countdown to the nuclear war began with the signing of the Oslo accords on 1993-SEP-13. He interprets the Book of Daniel as stating that this is a seven year agreement but would take 14 years to be fully carried out. He interprets Revelation as implying that nuclear war would begin a year, a month and a day prior to the end of the Oslo agreement. Hawkings has posted a video clip on that explains his predictions. 9

Eliezer Kamotho, an elder of the House of Yahweh group in Kenya, said that North Korea's nuclear bomb test on 2006-OCT-09 proved that a nuclear war was about to begin.
DEC-17: Dr. Jose Luis de Jesus Miranda predicted that Jesus Christ's second coming would happen in Puerto Rico on DEC-17. His website stated, in part:
"Este 17 de diciembre, el mundo será testigo de la segunda venida de Cristo. El Rey de Reyes llega a suelo boricua. Puerto Rico será el escenario donde cientos de personas presenciarán en vivo, mientras millones sintonizarán vía satélite, el evento que marcará el rumbo de la historia."

A rough translation is:

"This December 17th the world will be a witness of the second coming of Christ. The king of kings will touch upon the boricuan [Hispanic] land. Puerto Rico will be the stage where hundred’s of people will witness 'live' while millions will watch through satellite TV the event that will put a mark upon history." 10

It didn't happen either.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

The best way of making money on a blog is through sponsership, your blog doesn't get a ton of traffic. Your blog doesn't display great contextual ads. Or maybe you don't want to use contextual ads because you feel it devalues the overall of your blog.

I seem to realize that sponsers help bring cash flow with not much effort.

Now what?
Lots of people make money with contextual advertising, particulary with Google AdSense. But there's way more people who don't earn much of anything from Google AdSense or other advertising options like "Text Link Ads" and "Performacing".

Mastering contextual advertising isn't rocket science, but it is difinitely takes some effort. And there's an insane amount of resources out there (some good, some bad) on how to maximize the success of Google AdSense and other programs.

Affiliate marketing works well for quite a few people, but there's also a curve. It takes time to figure out, and there are a ton of options with companies like "Commission Junction, PayDotCom and Click bank".

The best way of making money with a blog is through sponsership (Oh Yeah, I mentioned that already).

1.You can hand-pick sponsers and build real relationships. With afflilate marketing you do get to pick what ads you show, but it's not the same as targeting specific sponsers you absolutely want to work with and actually person-to-person relationships can be of great value in developing your blog, finding other partners and growing your network.

2. You can display sponsership on your blog in a number of ways. A sponsership can be almost anything - a link in your posts, co-branding on the site, an advertisement, special content, a contest, etc... There's a ton of different ways you can execute a sponsership, and that makes them very interesting. You can figure out what your audience really wants to see, and work with sponsers to develop content, advertising and ideas that make sense.

3. You can negotiate payment options. Sponsorships can be paid for in a bunch of different ways: page views, clickthroughs, monthly, etc. The control and flexibility stay in your hands. For example, if you’re running an online contest, you might get paid for the implementation and during the life of the contest. I prefer monthly payments since they’re the easiest for everyone to understand.

4. You don’t have a huge learning curve to deal with. There’s a minimal learning curve with sponsorships. Find a sponsor, decide on the type of sponsorship and negotiate the price. You won’t see a million websites selling you $19.99 info products on, “how to maximize sponsorship opportunities with your blog.” That’s because sponsorships are so flexible and open, and dependent on real relationships, you can’t develop a “best practices system for everyone.”
5. You don’t need an uber-popular blog to get sponsors. There’s a lot of opportunity out there for smaller blogs to find sponsors. You might not get VISA or some Fortune 100 company involved, but lots of smaller companies could benefit from blog sponsorships. I’ve got a sponsor who I’ve very much enjoyed working with, and although I’d love Instigator Blog to be in the Technorati 100, I don’t think that’s going to happen! Still, with the right audience and reasonable traffic numbers, you can find a great sponsor.

getting sponsers will take time. It's not very easy as throwing up some contextual ads or afflilate marketing links. But just because you can put ads on your site in 5 minutes doesn't mean they'll make you any money.

The Human element of sponsership is the key. But Build relationships with people (which you already do as an extension of blogging) and sponsership will return more than just monetary rewards over time.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

If you are always willing to make one more attempt, you can
reach whatever goal you choose. No matter what results you
get, the only real failure is when you stop making the

When you are mistaken, you can learn. when you are knocked
down, you can get back up.

When you find that you've veered off track, you can correct
your direction. When you discover that circumstances have
changed, you can make adjustments accordingly.

Eventually, you'll reach the point at which the next attempt
you make is the one that will complete the desired
accomplishment. What a shame it would be to stop just one
effort short of success.

For that next effort will make all the others pay off.
Commit yourself to making one more effort, one more attempt,
as often as necessary, and anything is within your reach.

Keep making that one more attempt, keep getting back up, and
Keep moving forward in the direction of your goal, one step
after another. And you will surely get there.

Friday, October 12, 2007

What is difficult and what is easy? Very often, it's nothing
more than a matter of your perception and your attitude.

When you decide that something is difficult, you're sending
a message to yourself that you expect to struggle with it.
And whatever you expect, you are indeed likely to get.

What usually makes something difficult is your reluctance to
do it. Even the most complex challenge can seem relatively
easy when you're sincerely enjoying yourself as you work
your way through it.

The way to make your work easier is not by avoiding it or
resenting it. The way to make your work easier is by
embracing it with gratitude and enthusiasm.

Imagine how truly dangerous and grueling daily life would
have been if you had lived a few thousand years ago. Look at
your tasks for today from that perspective, and you'll be
thankful for the opportunity to be doing them.

Choose an attitude that will make your work not only easier,
but also more effective, creative and purposeful. Feel great
about what you're doing, and what you're doing will surely
and reliably bring great things.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Self-Injury or Self-Mutilation?

Self-injury is not something people talk about very often, but for an estimated 2 to 3 million Americans it is a serious problem. The majority of people who self-injure are women between the ages of 13 and 30, but there are "cutters" of every age, gender, and economic group.
People who "self-injure" are not usually suicidal. They do however, intentionally inflict injuries upon themselves, usually in response to stress or trauma. Their injuries may vary from minor cuts that heal quickly to very serious wounds that leave permanent scars. This is also known as "Deliberate Self-Harm Syndrome".
If you or someone you know self-injuries, please get professional help right away. This is just an overview of a very complex myriad of syndromes.
Self-injury usually indicates that somewhere during development that person didn't learn good ways of coping with overwhelming feelings or stress. They’re not sick or insane; they just never learned positive ways to deal with feelings and emotions for various reasons. Positive coping skills can be learned at any point in life. People who self-injure can learn to use new and healthier coping mechanisms. This process may take years to develop with the help of a skilled therapist familiar with this condition.

The late Princess Diana's word's shocked the world when she admitted in a television interview that she intentionally cut her arms and legs and had thrown herself down a flight of stairs on more than one occasion. FINALLY, self-injury -- the practice of deliberately cutting, scatching, burning, or otherwise injuring one's own body -- was about to come out of the closet. After that interview thousands of self-injury survivors called or wrote the media in response to that interview in just the United States alone.

Cutting seems to be the most common type of self-injury. "Cutters" often use razors, utility knives, scissors, needles, broken glass, or whatever they find to make repetitive slices on their arms, legs or other body parts. Some people burn themselves with cigarettes or lighters, others pull out their own hair. Many people who self-injure say they do it because they normally feel "numb" and cutting helps them to "feel alive." Others talk about the "sense of control" they may get from self-injury. This may be the first time or thing that they have felt a sense of control in their lives. Most agree that incidents of self-injury are triggered by stress and anxiety.

Self-injury is usually kept secret, and the "cutter" often feels deep shame and guilt from this ritual. People who self-injure are at risk for infections if their wounds are not treated properly. Permanent scarring can also result from self-injury and often does. Many people who self-injure wear long pants, long-sleeved shirts, and turtle-necks even in warm weather to conceal the marks they've left on their own bodies.

Why Do People Self-Injure?

This problem is not completely understood by health care professionals or psychologists. It seems to be most common among people who have been sexually abused as children, molested as children, or by survivors of "sexual_abuse.htm".
Whatever the context or reason, self-injury seems to function as a coping mechanism. "Cutters" use self-harm to feel calm, "in control," or just to "feel something." However, self-injury is not a healthy coping mechanism - it is a self-destructive behavior that probably reflects deeper, more complicated mental health or personal problems.

Some Common Factors of Self-Injury

1.Age of onset between 10 - 16 years old
2.There was a major change in the teen's life -- parents divorce or death
3.There is a history of family violence, abuse or sexually abuse
4.Intense feelings of fear, hurt, anger, rejection or abandonment
5.Feelings of loss and or need for control

Some Common Reasons Why People Cut Themselves

These are some of the reasons our readers who "cut" shared with us.
They find it soothing:
To feel pain on the outside instead of the inside
To cope with feelings
To express anger towards themselves
To feel alive and real

A way of communicating what they can't say with words:
To tell people they need help
To get people's attention
To tell people they should be in hospital
An attempt to get people to react to their action:
To get people to care for them
To make other people feel guilty
To drive people away
To get away from stress and responsibility
To manipulate situations or people
Triggering Events Reported by Young Adults Who Self-Injure:
Being rejected by someone who is important to them
Being blamed for something over which they had no control
Feeling inadequate
Being "wrong" in some way

Monday, October 08, 2007

If you're always chasing happiness, it will never be able to
find you. Relax, simply give happiness a place to live in
you, and it will be in great abundance.

When you put conditions on enjoyment, it turns into just
another chore. Let go, and sincerely enjoy the miracle that
is your life as it comes to you in each moment.

If you become overly attached to specific results, you set
yourself up for disappointment and disillusionment. Be
ambitious, yet do not be your ambition.

Sometimes, when things fail to go the way you suprises, they
turn out better than you could have possibly expected.
Welcome life's planned and choose to see the positive
value that is in each one of them.

Don't be too quick to place judgments on the people,
situations and events in your life. In everything that comes
along, there is an opportunity for you to more fully
discover and express your true purpose.

Be open to whatever life brings your way. There is real
treasure to be found in it all.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

My Dad is selling his Fathers 1903 St Louis, it has been in the family for over a hundred yrs. I have search through the internet to find information on this runabout built by George Dorris and only one page came up. If you are interested in this 1903 St Louis, please email me and remember that this car has NOT been restored, it is in its orginal condition and due to aging the paint has cracked. My email is ( I dont have any idea on a price to list this car of my Dads, if you can give me some ideas then email me. Thanks again !!!

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Beware of the monsters
who dwell in the mind,
who grow in the shelter
of shadows they find.

Beware of the demons
who hide from the light,
who only survive
when our spirits lose sight.

Those creatures can thrive
When our knowledge is low;
they fill in the spaces
that we don't know.

Beware of the monsters
That cause us to hate
to strike out the anger
when we can't relate

For ignorance darkens
the mind and the heart,
and helps all our monsters
to tear us apart

But learning and thinking
will strengthen us so
we won't be the places
where monsters can grow
My daughters and I took a trip to the thrift store to look for costumes, what do you think of our outfits? please leave a comment and tell us what you think...;)

Don't you love to just go into a thrift shop and try on clothing like this?

The Glasses make the picture perfect, what do you think?

should we go to the bank looking like this?

The thrift shop we went to, you could barely move around. It was so packed with clothing, shoes, glasses, coats, and jewlery. We had a blast and the woman that owns the store allowed us to try on just about anything we wanted. It was a moment to always remember. What are you dressing up as is on Halloween? can you guess which one is mee?

Monday, October 01, 2007

It amazes to me how complicated placing ads into my blog is for advertising. I know it can be more simpler, I have not quite got the Knack for it just yet, but I am learning each day. Today I have been searching for sponsors on my blogs. If your interested you can email me @, I’ve been on disability, and Workers Compensation.
I am learning through internet, subscribers and other resources. I feel like I am a slow learner, some of this doesn't make any sense to me. For one thing, what exactly is incoming and out going links, I know that incoming links are more important than out coming links. I wish I had a tutor to explain all of the questi0ons that are rattling within my mind, I find that I am fascinated in blog and web designing, sounds so interesting to me, please take the time to read my other blogs listed to the right, I need some feedback on exactly what the heck I am doing. Thank you !!!